There is nothing more disconcerting for me than my delusions and hallucinations.
They occur every day.
When my wife is available, I will oftentimes get a “reality check,” which definitely helps.
I don’t share any of the things I share with you, under the notion that you should in some way, feel sorry for me. I just want you to better understand me.
So, my schizophrenia symptoms happen when I write, too.
They happen all throughout the day.
I often question whether I am in a simulation, or whether I am just living a life that all-out sucks.
I question the existence of a higher power when I see evidence (a whole lot of evidence sometimes) to the contrary.
I guess oftentimes, I just don’t know what is real.
This is schizophrenia.
Also, the more information I get out on the blog, the more I feel as though I am being watched, and I feel persecuted for telling the things I tell.
Schizophrenia is my Achilles heel. I did not ask for this, I would not wish this upon any of my enemies (of which I do dislike a few people).
My condition is not a death sentence, but it is some real deal bullshit.