The title says it all.
But, the paranoia I experience does more than just piss me off, it all-out frightens me.
The fear can be like a surge of lightning, invading my thoughts. Only a surge of lightning doesn’t last as long.
In any event, I am constantly concerned about my welfare.
I feel as though someone, an unsavory person or persons, is about to come into my house and “shoot me up,” or what’s worse, “torture” me.
It could be in the middle of the night, when I am asleep and less able to defend myself, or during the day when I am most likely awake.
It could start out as a knock on the door or with a break in through the window. I just don’t know, and I am also tired of thinking like this.
So, I need to get out of the house, yes, and I think a lot about doing so, but my energy levels are so depleted!
It is cyclical, sad, and pretty much my life.