I did a guest post for Mental health 360° today, of which I am proud. It was great fun, and it was a joy working with Caz!
Here is the guest post in its entirety:
Caz has a lot to say about mental health herself, as a Mental Health Nurse, with designations in Mental Health First Aid and Mental Health Armed Forces Instruction, among others!
Again, it was great working with Caz.
Check out her site at:
Below is an abbreviated version of the post I did.
For me, my thoughts are oftentimes quite muddled.
I have confusion much of the time, and when I am clear on my thinking, that is a bonus—something worthy of celebrating!
Usually though, my days are spent listening to music, blogging, being on social media (for my blog), and writing.
I try to stay off of places like Facebook, because I just end up getting upset with others. And, I don’t want to put myself (and everyone else) through that!
I also have to stay away from politics as much as possible too, as nearly all types of politics are triggering.
So, again, I listen to music, blog, spend time on social media for my blog, and write.
And, that’s my typical day!
But, what do I think about? What are my thoughts like?
Pinning my thoughts down isn’t always easy.
Much of the time, I have skewed and warped views or “delusions,” about anything and everything.
“Hallucinations” are also prevalent—where I hear voices—that typically say or yell disparaging things.
I will even have full-blown conversations (a lot of times without my even realizing I am doing so), that focus on things that are largely invasive, and that have a negative undertone to them.
Like, I think a lot about how (I believe) my blog is garnering a lot of negative attention from important people (i.e. the government or people connected to the government), who may somehow use the things I write about, against me.
And, I am in competition with these conversations, in order to have a healthy stream of thoughts (which I don’t 100% of the time get to experience).
I do get lost or stuck a lot with my way of thinking, and as I’ve said, I basically am tasked with interrupting those invasive conversations, as they are unhealthy and unkind.
I deal with all of this stuff every day, but interestingly enough, I do have some amount of happiness and confidence within myself and with regards to the life I live.
That didn’t happen overnight either. In fact, it took all of 20 years to figure out that I can also feel good, while in the midst of psychosis.
What the turning point for me was, was figuring myself out and what I believe, and then slowly introducing the notion of being in an intimate relationship, which I feel that achieving that has been my biggest stabilizing force.
I also feel that relationships (in general) tend to be very elusive to many people living with severe mental illness.
If we could all just begin to look at our mental illnesses as something that we just have, and find ways to challenge ourselves amid them aka try to make our life experiences somehow better, I think that we will win the battle against our diagnoses!
Perhaps that is wishful thinking for a lot of us, and maybe it is, but I always believe in doing something, that places me in an upward and onward direction!
And, yes, it is quite tough!
But, I have noticed that specific improvements do occur, when I am overtly challenging myself and my current levels of insight.
So, how do you feel when you are challenging your mental health experience? Especially as it pertains to wrestling control of your symptoms?