NOTE: This post is about my psychosis experience, but I also wanted to say that chronic illnesses “in general” cause A LOT of problems for the individuals struggling with them.
Intentionality often drives my daily practice! In addition to having access to good mental health care, a good support system, medications, and a “helpful” set of beliefs—in terms of having psychosis—I am the exception rather than the rule!
I don’t pretend to be anyone other than who I am. And, I just tell it like it is, which I couldn’t begin doing much of until recently…
As many of you already know, I have taken down more than a dozen blogs over the years.
I took everything down namely because of my delusions and hallucinations!
There’s no work around for severe mental illness, so you just end up “dealing”—which is what I do day in and day out.
Anyone struggling with severe mental illness, “knows” the devastation it causes…
Your whole life gets turned upside down (many times, it seems, in an instant), and never fully returns to the way it was…
And, that’s some voodoo—let me get the hell out of this “arrangement”—bullshit!
But, you can’t and don’t get out of the “arrangement.”
You’re stuck, a lot of times unable to do even the most basic of tasks, such as brushing your teeth or taking a shower…
And, forget about doing a shitload of other things—it ain’t happening—not without A LOT of struggle!
Again, this has been “my” experience.
It’s like I do this dance with consistency, that’s similar to a one-two “forget about you” type thing, and it just plain sucks!
I know that mental illness is my cross to bear, and I’ll get through…
As a side note, I do think that some people with severe mental illness are able to tap into various nooks and crannies of the brain, and just “be” creative.
I know, that I have several ways in which I, myself, am creative. So, at least for me, this theory (though it may not be backed up by science) rings true!
Can anyone comment on the research regarding creativity and severe mental illness?
I greatly appreciate your support!