I can’t always do this, but I have noticed (as many anxiety sufferers probably have) that many of the things I fear in life, are unfounded.
To elaborate, it is more than fear that I am talking about—it’s my delusions.
I have realized (through speaking to my wife about certain matters), that, if I give it a few days, it is quite possible that I’ll be wrong about something that had previously been troubling me.
For instance, let’s say that I believe that someone has it out for me, and that I can tell by their actions, that I am soon going to be a “victim.”
If I give it a day or two, the exact thought(s) or “delusions” that I experienced regarding said person, will usually come around again, accompanied with newfound knowledge, that I was “wrong” about my “assertion.”
Of course, I am embarrassed (I don’t need to be) when things do come back around, but I am learning to not be surprised either!
If I am going to worry about a plethora of things, some of them are “bound” to be off-the-wall untrue!
And, this is just a part of the hell of working through issues related to severe mental illness.
But, at least I am “trying.”
In fact, that is my new mantra—to at least “try!”
Am I at least “trying?”
I’ve always been someone who tries, but I haven’t always had that all-elusive awareness, which many times held me back!
What about you? Is a lack of awareness a problem for you? How do you get around it?