For the past few weeks, I have been living with suicidal thoughts. And, while I don’t intend on acting on this intrusive thinking, it is quite difficult to live this way.
Every day, there has been a significant amount of distress in my camp.
On top of battling schizoaffective disorder, which includes, for me, thwarting off suicidal thinking, I maintain this blog.
And, I want to use my voice to tell you that what I go through is not normal, it’s not the blues, and it’s anything but fun!
The suicidal thoughts come and go, but my illness as a whole is always there. Somewhere in the mix.
About Suicide Awareness…
If you know someone is having thoughts of suicide, try and engage them.
For all intents and purposes, it is the rare person who has suicidal thoughts, but has 0 intention on following through with them.
I am one, who, while I struggle, I do not plan to do anything to harm myself. People with the kinds of thoughts I have, definitely need to be in some kind of treatment though!
Of which, I am.
I hope everyone is safe and please be well!